Do you ever worry that you'll lose your anarchist spirit as you get older?

For the last 15 years, since I was in middle school, people have told me that I would "grow out" of anarchism. Like its a stage of life rather than a legitimate philosophy.

I gotta be honest here. I'm 30 years old and my mind is increasingly fragmented and frankly I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm moving towards a mindset that mocks anarchy. I'm scared that my confidence is waning.

To be clear - I still fully believe in anarchism, and I hope I will never become so jaded that I abandon it.

Just wondering if anyone else is going through something similar. My brain is maturing, I guess, and its telling my soul that anarchism isn't worth the trouble and I should just shuffle on, keep my head down, all that.