The Bible broke my faith in God

Hi all! Thanks for reading this, and thanks to Tim, John and their team for an (ongoing) eye-opening experience.

I used to see the Bible as 'security camera footage' (as Tim jokingly puts it) -historical documentation that I could rely on as unbiased, totally reliable evidence (rather than biased argument) that proved 1) God exists and is lovingly involved in the minutia of our lives; 2) He literally performed miracles which cannot be explained by anything less than divine intervention; 3) He manifested as a human who died and literally came back to life so that 4) my imperfections and self-centeredness are forgiven and 5) I can literally leave this toil one day to spend eternity in a much better/happier/less-stressful place in the presence of God.

After listening to all of Exploring My Strange Bible and almost all of the Bible Project Podcast episodes, I am now left with a more realistic understanding of the Bible as an anthology profoundly affected by the imperfections, biases and culture of its human authors -literature which is intrinsically no more reliable than Scientologists & TV evangelists, which is asking me to trust it with my life and afterlife with no basis for trust other than it tells me that it is trustworthy.

I am heartbroken. How do you all reconcile this? I have been told that it just takes faith -and I’m comfortable placing faith in a god who does the things listed in the Bible, but I’m not ok putting blind faith in humans. How do you place trust in these writings when it comes to our eternal destination? I know, I know -Tim emphasizes the here-and-now kingdom and teaches that the biblical authors were not as concerned about the afterlife (…though to me it still seems like they were!), but I can’t help it -my only real motive to fight my natural inclinations and to follow the difficult teachings of Jesus would be to one day leave this life and live in a literal eternal peace. I can now only see the Bible as one of the many superstitious explanations for a tough life on earth, built on supposition and musings rather than than audible dictated words from God, and without reliable evidence for claims 1-5 above. Help?

(Similar to my post at Biologos a few weeks ago to get additional perspectives)