Does binging also makes u suicidal?

It literally does. For me.

A couple of times a day I binge. For a month my stomach is constantly a balloon about to pop.

Binging is pure self harm for me. I don't allow myself to cut, drink, smoke or vomit so all my self hate gets channelled into my stomach.

I'm burning with self hatred. I spent every penny, I've stolen every sweet of my family, I've been binging outside on cold, I've been running from shop/bakery to home to binge as soon as possible, I've been eating Chinese dish out of my cupped hand like a dog this night because it would be too loud to get a bowl and I'd wake everyone up.

Most of what I eat I don't like in the slightest

All I can think about is food or suicide.

I hate this. My teeth hurt I can feel them rotting. I wish I could for a moment not bursting my stomach open I hate this

But I hate myself more