We're among friends, do you still have a security blanket?
Overcoming CPTSD is an extremely difficult accomplishment.
To deal with your trauma, do you have a security blanket?
I sleep with a microplush pillow. At first I convinced myself it was for physical support but I now realize it provides emotional comfort as well.
How about you? Could be a fidget toy or a literal stuffed animal you wanted as a child.