Collapse caught me at worst time possible

I M19 have been collapse aware for 3 years now and since then life is basically downhill. I stopped enjoying good things in life and had uncontrollable ruminations about dying of thirst, hunger, a wet bulb or being killed in a in anarchic society. Now I am seeking professional help for all that stuff.

I live in Northern Turkey which is green and pleasant but it gets worse exponentially and apocalyptically. April temperatures in mid winter and crazy hot weather and drought in summer (+35C which is unseen in this place) for some years now .

And we are governed by a malignant entity who has no regard for anything but dirty money. Educated people in this country is being held hostage by an ignorant mob for more than 20 years now and it looks like we will lose our last sign of democracy and possibility to vote them out.

I am studying medicine in arguably the best school in the country and I really don't know what to do in this situation. I have 4 years until graduation and my original plan was to go somewhere north, Canada, UK, Sweden maybe Germany etc. But I have doubts at this point if these countries will continue to recruit doctors at today's level with all developments in AI stuff. I contemplated dropping out and getting a CS degree but I am now 2 years into medicine. And now the far right parties are on the rise everywhere, legal immigration will surely be clamped down. I am not even sure if I will be able to get my degree with things breaking down at this rate.

My studies are intense and I have virtually no free time. I know we are running out of time and I feel like I am sacrificing my last "normal" days for a purpose in vain. I contemplated dropping out and just spending my time with my family but of course everyone around me said no no. We literally sit in the library all day memorizing every little vessel in our body while the world is ending before our eyes. I know I need to do my best and hope for the best, I should not give up without putting up a fight but what are we fighting against? We are already locked in for apocalypse even if we humans vanished today.

I struggle to find motivation anymore and I absolutely don't want to return to those dark days of obsessive rumination.

I feel like this collapse affair caught me at the worst possible time. What I wouldn't give to have been born fifty years ago.

I would appreciate any kind of support help or motivation. Love you guys all