I need to stop smoking weed. Help motivate me.

I have an unhealthy relationship with weed. I support marijuana, I believe it could be used in healthy ways. The reason I’ve come to have my problems Is because the disposable thc vapes. They are so convenient and I am able to do them any where at anytime. This literally has caused me to be the high all day everyday type of person and it’s been that way for some years now.

Literally the high I get isn’t even enjoyable anymore I just do it to do it. It’s so sad thinking where I’ve gotten to, I try and quit and relapse so fast. I’ve only successfully quit once, I made it to around 70 days and I remember feeling the differences mentally and physically. I thought I could have a healthy relationship with weed again, which I did for a while, but eventually I got back on the thc vape path again and was right back where I started.

I know I need to stop. My breathing has became more difficult and I always feel out of breath. I often feel heart palpations or weird rhythms, and I am always anxious as well. Idk, I just know I’m doing damage to myself yet I don’t know why it’s still so hard to quit. I want to quit and need to quit so badly.

I’m also making this post so I can come back and read it every time I want to give up. I FEEL THIS WAY AND WANT TO GIVE UP FOR A REASON. YOU ARE NOT HAPPY CHOOSING TO STILL SMOKE EVERYDAY.