The absence of all life is the true freedom.

Personal experiences do not mean much on the background of all other experiences. Suffering is the only thing that matters. Without suffering problems are impossible. The true escape from suffering is not personal death, but the extinction of all sentient beings, because suffering is suffering, it does not matter who exactly is in pain, you or me. Our bodies are producing the same product. So do not give up if you can contribute to extinction, because it is the only true way to solve all problems. Understanding of this fact also destroys selfishness, this is why I love efilism. Efilism makes people more ethical.