I broke NC and then blocked him

I broke no contact and things were going good with our conversations. We ended things mutually with me breaking up with him a week prior to him finally accepting that. When I reached out, we had been broken up for a month.

Talking with him this time around was more like we were friends. I think because I couldn't see what initially attracted me to him. This guy wasn't my type whatsoever and after 4 months of dating him, I really felt no feelings towards him. Sex with him was mediocre and we always did the same boring position, he didn't want to try anything else. In order for me to have sex with him I needed to be drinking. I should have known then, but when one is craving human touch, one will do about anything.

I cut things off with him last week where I said how I was feeling about us talking again and how I was going back to NC. That when I said goodbye our last morning together, I meant it. I wished him luck. He said he didn't understand what I was talking about because I wasn't being clear. I don't know if it was a language barrier because English is his 2nd language, but he pulls then whenever we would start to talk about anything serious. Every other time his English is perfect. I told him I was being absolutely clear and then blocked him.

It felt good to do that. But I realized that I was only with this guy because he was interested in me, but I wasn't interested in him because he wasn't my type. I was forcing things because I was being desperate. Even when I broke up with him, I felt no sadness and instead I felt relief.

Anyone else feel like this with an ex?