I feel trapped

Every day I can’t go anywhere outside my apartment without feeling like I’m in a dystopian society. Everything doesn’t feel right, I feel like everything I do is perceived as incorrect by others.

I go on walks early every morning at a pretty massive park near me but it’s all artificial beauty; I spend two hours trying to clear my head of all the fuckery I have to put up with at work. My job doesn’t actually mean anything as I have the software skills to automate it and already have as I built a web portal for myself and end up doing things in a few clicks every time something lands on my desk.

The well being of those people around me seems to get worse over time.

When I bring up how I feel to my gf or my family they just ignore it because I’ve always felt this way.

I really don’t think humans are adapted to this environment. I feel so trapped; like say I start a business and make a lot of money, I would still feel trapped merely out of how my interactions with other people feel.