(SERIOUS) I'm legit scared and hoping someone can provide me reassurance

First thing, I just created this account to post this. I'm fairly active on this sub (and other related ones) and I'm kind of embarrassed by how I feel.

There has been an uptick of doom and gloom/end of the world stuff recently in regards to UAP/NHI. I have a 2 year old son and twins on the way. I'm so scared something bad is going to happen to them and my family. I sat up all last night reading skeptics blogs and watching debunking videos on YouTube to try and make me feel better. It didn't work because I'm a believer and want disclosure -- just don't want my beautiful boy and unborn babies to live through the collapse of society or an impending alien attack.

I have moments of clarity where I know I sound ridiculous and acknowledge I have a fairly severe anxiety disorder (medicated). With that said, I can feel myself doom spiraling again and I have witnessed the kindness of this sub. I wouldn't dare post this in r/aliens in fear of being blasted into the sun. Help me.