MDMA abuse - my story

Bro molly can f@ck you up beyond comprehension, this is not a drug to be messed with. I always thought it to be a teenager's drug and always viewed cocaine as way more dangerous but damn it's the exact opposite. Serotonin is not to be messed with.

Long story short I took 200-400 mg of mdma once a month for 8 months. Then I started to abuse it, I took 40 pills (around 220mg each) in a span of three months. Sometimes even 3-3.5 pills a night. Then I stopped. What followed was a 2 month hell period where it didnt matter how much weed I smoked (I used to smoke weed daily during this whole time) I couldnt shake this sad empty feeling off. 0 motivation. 0 energy. My emotions were all over the place I could cry over the most insignificant thing. NOSTALGIC AND MELANCHOLIC. Memory loss. I could barely form sentences. I didnt want to go out didnt want to see my friends. Everything seemed like a waste of time. Very vivid dreams, hallucinations. Depersonalisation, derealisation. It was hell for 2 months. Then it started to get better and I can say that after 5 more months I was 85% recovered. It left me with digestive issues possibly ulcers, trouble sleeping, anxiety, a lingering sense of anhedonia and depression, and it also made me quit weed since weed got very depressing and made me super anxious.

I completely regret abusing it, I should have stopped after those 8 months of rolling once a month. Damn I remember when I started rolling and found out about the 3-month rule I thought whoever came up with that is a complete loser turns out they were right.