i know i’m helpless

please don’t judge me 😬 sobrang galit ako sa sarili ko for being like this, for having bipolar disorder, for having major depressive disorder, for cutting and burning myself, and for having all these fucking suicidal ideation tendencies and shit. i don’t want this shit anymore, i feel so fucking tired yet numb all i want to do is to km$. everyday i beg god to just take me, whenever my birthday come i wish would d word. i don’t want to live anymore, i’m sorry if i don’t want any help anymore, what i want is for everything to stop. lord, bigay mo nalang tong buhay ko sa iba, alam ko maraming tao ang mas nahihirapan sakin, please reward them the lives they deserve. alam ko lord na most of the time lumalapit lang ako sayo para humingi ng something but please po kunin mo na ako.