I feel so weak

I'm so sick, I can't go on like this.

I wanna rip my face off, I wanna chop off this dangling thing between my legs. I hate myself, I'm a disgusting, filthy, ugly creature who can't do anything. I'm a disappointment and a laughingstock.

I want to give up, I can't take it anymore. I can't keep fighting this battle.

The dysphoria is stronger than me and it's time I admit it, I can't even suppress it a little bit.

I'd rather be a guy than try to change things and lose everything I have.

What a pathetic, disgusting freak I am.

I'm just gonna go to sleep now and hope I don't wake up again.

I wish I'd never found out I was trans.