Told her why I couldn't get it up

After intensely hating myself, I felt I had a cosmic duty to set things straight.

The girl I tried to sleep with was hurt. After she saw I couldn't get it up, she began believing it was her fault. Maybe she didn't look good, or said something wrong. Neither were true. I said I was shy. I said I needed time to adjust. Which was strange because I was so comfortable around her.

She was confused. I told her before I had a high sex drive. I mean, I know that. I can edge for hours. I can do it multiple times a day. But there I was, in all my limp glory.

So I told her today. I apologized for the experience, and I said this was due to my experience with pornography. I knew that because this happened to the last relationship I was in. And it slowly went away as I stopped watching pornography. And then we broke up and I returned to my old ways. I said that I became used to getting off through porn, that it's caused issues like this. That I used it in times of loneliness to make that go away.

I had no idea how she'd take it. But, I felt it was important to be honest. She said that made a lot of sense now, and it really helped her understand what was happening. She said she didn't judge me, and appreciated my honesty. I told her if she's patient with me, that she can see me get over this obstacle. And that I was stopping watching porn entirely from my life.

Its going to be rough for a little while, while my guy isn't cooperating. But, I'm hoping we can enjoy the journey along the way. Give up PMO. It only damages you and the ones closest to you. I will never go back. I know that now with a certainty I've never felt before.