Privilege comes with its own cons .

So im doing cardiology (UG course under Allied Health Science.cardiolgy has courses under them as cardiac care and Perfusion technology) and I'm well aware and always greatful for being born in a privileged family. Keeping in mind that I wasn't privileged from birth but gradually becuase of gods grace we are here. My parents have always been and always taught me to be humble. Do things for PPL without others knowing.

I'm 22F ,little religious, I don't party or drink .. I've 3 girl besties from PU and my bf as my best friends. I go out only with them.

Now I've this issue where i can't stop looking at people who need smtg. I always feel like " y not ? God has given my the ability to help PPL so y not do it?" And that has messed me up lot of times.

Most of my classmates see me as ATM. In not exaggerating. I was naive too.
- There was this girl from my class who easily cashed out 25k from me telling her mom is sick . True her mom was sick but she forgot to hide me in her stories and I saw her partying with her friends. I just put a heart emoji to prick her and left it

• My dad ended up paying some of my college mates ( not particularly from my class but college) who were about to get kicked out from hostel etc. He does pay lot of students fee since he struggled a lot when he was a student and no support. He made sure it was private but one of the staff lady blurted it out.

• I've helped people but then when I drew a boundary people literally stopped talking to me. Like even now I'm so alone in college . They either message me when they need cash or recommendation.

• One guy literally spread rumours that I'm an escort and I'm a Ho*. People actually believed it saying " yeah rich PPL shit". I was so mentally done. I did discuss at home , they were supportive and we did find the person . I just stopped at a warning letter because I don't wanna be the reason someone's future gets ruined.

Even till this day I'm so fucking alone. I eat my lunch alone , i sit alone I do stuff alone. I know i don't need such people's company but yeah . Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. Maybe if I was like other rich kids no one would have taken this much of advantage. Maybe being like me and privilege isn't a good combo. It's not just college , people usually see me through a different mindset and perspective anywhere i go. I do visit lot of orphanages and pet shelters . I spend time and i also make sure they get stuff.. but once when I didn't have 50 rs with me and i couldn't pay parking ticket , I heard a lady from orphanage whispering to another one saying " she's rich and can't afford 50rs ? These people are so trash" .

Its just so messed up . I hope people realise not everyone are same.