Living overseas

I’m 25 now. I left home to study abroad when I was 19 and since then I’ve lived overseas. Whenever I come back home to visit, I think about how I wish could move back. I’m never overly sad leaving my current country of residence. But then I’m scared that I will miss it as well if I move back home… My family town is very small so if I were to move back, I’d most likely need to move to a bigger city and start my life all over again though. Added to that is the pressure of being an only child and the guilt of leaving them behind. I struggle a lot with all of these feelings. Just wanted to rant here and see what your experiences are.