Anyone else wish they could’ve been euthanized right along with their pet?

Cause I’m dying here, guys.

I had to unexpectedly put my dog, Honey down on October 20th. It’s been 52 days without her and I still don’t know what I’m doing. My life was her. She was my emotional support dog. She was 15 and I had her since she was 2 months. I don’t have a job so I was devoted to her 24/7. She was diagnosed with heart disease September 2023. Life expectancy is 6-12 months. I gave her 4 pills a day so I thought she was gonna be with me longer. I just hope they helped her in some way.

Around 10pm on October 19th she woke up from a long nap and started breathing heavily and couldn’t catch her breathe. She was fine all day on the 19th, nothing different at all. It just started in a blink of an eye. I think I just knew. It’s really hard to explain cause I thought she would be here with me longer. I didn’t want it to be true.

I’m still so lost. She was my light. The only thing in my life that made me so incredibly happy was having her right by my side. I need her back cause this hurts so much.