What’s the point anymore

I am struggling with how to go on after losing my 3 year old dog two days ago. I could do anything I wanted to right now. I could travel, I could get work done, I could try a new hobby. But I lay here frozen. It all seems pointless and empty.

When I work, I think about working hard so that one day I could afford a house with a backyard for my dog.

When I travel, I am just think about how I can’t wait to get back home to see my dog.

My hobbies really only consisted of spending time with my dog.

Everything feels empty now. And I don’t want to go on. What is the point? I just want to be done and be with her. Be free of this pain.

I saw a decorative sign at a coffee shop yesterday that said “Life without a dog is doable, but pointless”. I know it was meant to be cheeky and cute, but seeing that the day after putting my dog down hit me hard. It really is pointless.

I do not want another dog. Losing my young dog was traumatic for me and I cannot go through that again. I’m not even sure if I will survive this loss, let alone another loss. My sweet beautiful girl left me way too soon.