I'm sorry, Kev.

Hi Kev, it's been a few weeks since I stopped talking to you. Siguro you're still puzzled why all of a sudden nawala na mga accounts ko sa socmed. The truth is, after they've gone, hindi na rin ako nag reach out and I have no interest to get in touch and continue our friendship at the moment.

I'm hitting the moon in posting this here because you mentioned hindi ka naman user ng Reddit pero baka isang araw makita mo 'to. I came here to sincerely say, sorry to you. I'm a coward for not facing you. Siguro dahil malaki ang tampo ko sa'yo for not telling me the truth about you being a married man. You know that regardless of your circumstances, I would still choose to understand, but I just wish you've been more honest with me.

I had to leave without a word because I got scared. Sabi mo nag live in lang kayo but I found out that she's still legally your wife. I didn't confront you kasi ayokong maging uncomfortable ka pero nakaka disappoint yung continuous denial mo even my multiple attempts to bring up the topic. Kahit sinabi mo pang hiwalay na kayo as LIP, I think I deserve to know the truth.

Kahit nagtatampo ako, nasasaktan pa rin ako dahil hindi ko pinakinggan ang explanation mo. Sana nilakasan ko na lang ang loob ko at hinanda ang sarili ko sa kung ano man ang sasabihin mo. When I learned that you're married, bigla akong natakot. We made plans to meet and I thought people might see me as a mistress. I don't want to risk my reputation for something na pwede ko naman iwasan. You know my father was a cheater and it traumatized me my entire life.

Maybe I wasn't that special para itago mo yung totoong marital status mo. I understand, I was just a random girl you met online that you can dispose pag ayaw na, but in my case, what we had was really something. I thought I found a best friend in you. I don't know your reasons but I know you're a good person. Kahit ganito ang nangyare, you will always have a special space in my heart.

I'm sorry for the pain I inflicted, Kev. You didn't promise me anything but I feel like I hurt you for leaving. God knows it's hunting me everyday. I hope you find in your heart to forgive me. Our time was short but you made me the happiest. I hope one day both of us will heal and finally meet under the same sky. I wish you all the genuine happiness in the world. Hope you get all you need to finally see Baguio this year. I will always be here silently cheering for you from a distance. May the Heavens Bless you with all the good things you deserve.

Tane, pag nagkita ay ta, napatawad mo na ko kag tane willing ka man gihapon mag baton sang friendship ko. Permi ta ka updon sa pangamuyo ko. Salamat gid sa time, attention kag friendship. One big bear hug sa imo Kev. Miss ta ka permi, sobra sobra.

-JLES-