When You Leave

When You Leave

When you leave
I don't want you
to break my heart
I want you to mutilate my soul.
Please
don’t take just a part of me
I want you
to devour me whole.

When you leave
don’t slip out
quietly at night. Please
just snap my spine in two.
Leave me heartbreak paralyzed
just for you.

When you leave
I want you
to leave me with nothing.
I want you to have left
only after having become
my everything.

I want to love you so fully
so recklessly
that in the moment
that you leave me
there would be nothing
nothint at all
left to leave.
A distant shadow.
A hollow shell.
A nightmare memory
of who
I could have been
had I never loved you.
When you leave
Please
leave me like that.

And
Please
never leave.