[UPDATE] Today's my girlfriend's birthday, and I[M20] want to break up with her

Okay, let me give you some context. I’m tired of feeling insecure, even though it’s my fault. She’s sweet and shares everything with me, but she enjoys attention from other guys, which bothers me. I think breaking up is best—it’ll hurt both of us, but I won’t have to worry anymore. She’ll always be the best for me, the best girlfriend I could imagine.

Now the update [Day- her birthday]--I don’t know what happened that day or if there’s still something lingering, but I wanted to break up with her. Though the breakup would’ve been so messy for her that it would’ve ruined her entire birthday. I knew that if I did this, she would cry—she would cry a lot—and I wouldn’t be able to bear seeing her cry. On that day before i posted the first story, she called me around midnight (12:30 AM) on her birthday, and we talked until 4-5 AM. I pretended as much as I could, but she could tell I wasn’t in a good mood. Still, we talked, and after 1-2 hours, my mood improved, and we had a nice video call before falling asleep. When I woke up, I went back to my routine. Later, I kept feeling like I should break up with her—no idea why. When she’s around, I don’t feel like it, but when she’s not, I’m convinced I’ve had enough and don’t want to talk anymore. And it’s not her fault; she hasn’t done anything wrong.

Coming back to that night: She got ready for her birthday and sent me four photos in her new outfit. She wore the necklace I’d gifted her, even though I’d asked her not to because her mom or family might suspect something. But she’s so stubborn—she wore it anyway and celebrated. I couldn’t meet her, though. That night, she sent all the photos and videos. She looked so happy, glowing and smiling. I saw everything, and her message popped up: "Hi! Did you sleep already? It’s so early!" The day wasn’t even over, and the thought of breaking up was still on my mind. I replied, "No, not yet… How was your birthday?" She said, "It was amazing. You know I was waiting for my birthday just to see how my bf would wish me. I wasn’t excited about anything else. I was waiting for your wish more than anyone else’s…" Those lines hit me hard, and I didn’t broke up with her. I realized that i have a really good girlfriend, and I’m confused/stupid. If she were toxic, then i might have broken up on her birthday. sometimes I’m happy, sometimes really depressed. But I guess this is what life is called.

And now, before writing your reply, reverse the roles. If the title were '𝙄[𝙁21] 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙠 𝙪𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙮𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙[𝙈20] 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙧𝙚 ,' would your reply still be the same? Wouldn't there be chants of 'Slay,' 'Go girl,' 'You deserve better'? You guys are so biased and feminist, seriously.

[Edit 1]Those telling me to break up—dude, look, I can do it. It’s not like I have any major issue with it (beside not getting sex anymore). But that poor girl will feel hurt. Right now, as long as she’s going through a rough patch, I’ll stay with her. At least until her situation improves and she no longer needs me. Once that happens, I’ll walk away on my own

[Edit 2] I feel like an idiot for even sharing my story here. Most of you are clueless, judging everything after barely reading for two minutes. Aside from one or two, the rest of the advice is absolute garbage. I’m better off doing things my own way. Now, let me sit back with some popcorn and enjoy the trainwreck of your pathetic, brain-dead advice.