I will be taking a leave of absence from this place - Make Good Choices In my Absence
I would like to echo a sentiment I made in a Discord announcement:
Shortly after my father passed away, my sister and I elected to get matching tattoos of an oft repeated maxim of his, "Just be Happy," mine resting on my chest, opposite my heart. Many people take this statement to mean that that no matter the situation you should always exhibit happiness, but I have always seen the statement another way. "Just Be Happy" is the determination that the things I seek to do in life should spark joy at the very least in myself, but also in helping other people. It is not an admonishment of sadness or other emotions, but an expression that I should always push to be the best version of myself, and to help make others the best versions of their selves.
>! I think that some people may have misconstrued this anecdote, my father’s passing is not recent, however is is a story I shared on Discord earlier today as a point of relation to on my own server - the fundamentals of the story itself are certainly a catalyst for this break. But I have come to terms with the fact that I’ve been prematurely batman’d years go !<
I am not without error in judgement - And my detractors will be quick to point out the minority of times where I did not make the best choice. . .They may point to posts I made years ago - To which I would urge all of you [even supporters] to consider that everybody [even Vaanced] is capable of personal growth.
Today, I am broken - honestly just really tired of seeing certain accusations that sometimes get tossed around, and believe it is in the best interest of my own mental health and continued growth to take a temporary step away from this Subreddit - With an intended leave of at least a month, possibly longer.
I have, in life, almost always valued other people before myself - Often sneaking to the bathroom to make a helpful post, or ignoring something I should be doing in favor of a breakdown. And I recognize that to some extent this needs to change. And frankly, I'm just tired of [the small minority] of people who go beyond what is a reasonable dislike of somebody they don't even know.
If I can leave you guys with a few things that I've really tried hard [and admittedly not always succeeded in] to relay over the last 2 years:
- Every person here is a person with thoughts, feelings, and a life, be decent to each other.
- Disagreeing on a point about the game is not the same as being argumentative or admonishing the character of another person
- It costs you nothing to be kind, and only furthers your point.
- Yes "The Ninety Nine Experiment" will continue, I am not leaving the game.
I am posting this here for a few reasons:
- To hold myself accountable - I know my strengths and weaknesses, and I am far more motivated by the idea of knowing I've told people I will stick to something, rather than keeping it to myself.
- I post very frequently, I just want you to know I'm still alive.
- If this shocks anyone, I really just hope said people look at their own posting styles and always elect to try and do better.
There is only really one thing that could make me come back prematurely. . .
And that is CG doing something so fundamentally major that I need to inform people of the proper way to do things, in which case I will remain strictly to said posts.
Those of you who knows me know where to find me, however, I will also be focusing on my own mental health and priorities.
There is only one thread that I will continue to respond to over the next 24 hours - Which is my mod filter thread - I firmly believe that any idea worth posting about is worth defending. I will be ignoring all other threads.
May the Force Be With You