I just want my bf :(

I’ve been felling kinda sad the past few days bc of a bunch of different stuff and I just wanna hang out with my bf but he’s with other friends who don’t like me… I’ve been feeling small today too and I’ve already cried 4 times… I just want him to be here… My other friend is here with me but I’m about to cry again bc I want to ask my bf to come back but I don’t wanna keep him from his friends and be “that girlfriend” yk? Idk why they don’t like me… I’m usually such a nice person (unless you do something to piss me off)… I’ve been feeling like I’m making everyone around me upset and pushing them away sadly… But today I was gonna try to fix that and hang out with people… It started good but then he left (Xbox partychat) to hang out with other people… It scares me bc I’m scared that I made him upset or mad… Even tho I’m pretty sure I didn’t it’s still scary…