I wanna hook up with my friend

This is a long explanation, but I’ll do my best to make a long story short. I (25M) moved to a new city about a year ago and met my friend (20F). She and I became friends fast, and our chemistry from the get go was always good. So good, that by about 2-3 weeks of friendship, we were already receiving the whole “are you two going out” questions. We never did anything to fuel these suggestions other than just be around each other a lot. That is, until about 4 months into our friendship. We started getting a bit more touchy with each other, hugging a lot, even her laying on me while we would be watching a show or a concert. We would eventually have small talk about the possibility of being in a relationship with one another, but they were nothing more than passing thoughts. Truthfully, even though we had good chemistry, I felt nothing romantically for this girl, and still don’t.

Fast forward to around the time of Thanksgiving 2024, we had a Friendsgiving at a local venue with multiple people we both knew. At this event, we sat by each other and proceeded to feed one another food. Many people were super surprised to hear that we weren’t together romantically, and frankly, I don’t blame them. It came down to us having an actual serious conversation about our relationship and where we went from here. In this conversation, we both agreed that we wouldn’t be good long term partners and that this friendship was too valuable to even pursue the idea. We also, seemingly, agreed to tone down how we interacted with each other. It was around this time that we both could really start to feel the sexual tension between us, and I was willing to pursue it, but again, I don’t want anything romantic with her.

Fast forward to now, and the idea of us toning it down never happened. In fact, we both just leaned into the sexual energy even more. Hugging each other a bunch, complimenting each other on how we look, and we even now make sexual jokes to each other almost everyday, and it’s along the lines of us joking about having sex. Recently at a party we went to, I went to tell her I was going to the bathroom, to which she then proceeded to kiss my hand before I left and said “come back soon.” After the party was over, we continued to make sexual jokes with one another and I ended up kissing her hand before she drove home.

In the midst of another conversation we had over the phone, we proceeded to make jokes to one another, in which one of them ended with me saying “what do you want from me?” And her responding “I want you to fuck me, to be honest.” At this point, I felt my walls breaking and responded with “we can make that happen, you know.” She paid it no mind and continued on another topic.

At this point, I truly do feel all my walls breaking, and I genuinely want to hook up with her. Despite all the jokes we make, however, there’s a part of me that feels like all of this is a tease, just a way to have fun with a friend. On top of that, I’m a virgin, so I have no idea how I’m even supposed to take the initiative here. There could be more I can say, but that’s the gist of my situation. I’m more excited/afraid of what could happen whenever we’re with each other now, cause it seems like the sexual tension just becomes more and more apparent.