I binge ate a whole bunch of chocolates and feel like absolute shit.

I feel terrible about myself. Honestly, growing up I was a pretty chunky kid but I somehow lost it as I grew up and had a massive glow up. I'm currently 24 and can admit to being conventionally attractive. However, I just graduated a couple months back and ever since I returned back home, I feel like I've been gaining weight. I was 59kgs however, I'm currently 65Kgs. I'm scared as shit to gain weight. I want to lose weight. I want to exercise and eat healthy food and I want to take care of my body. But I just cant stop myself. My uncle brought was visiting and got me a whole lot of chocolates from Chicago and I have absolutely zero self restraint. It's like if there is any junk in my house, I will ultimately end up eating it because my brain is telling me to. I hate it and feel like absolute shit afterwards. I'm currently in a long distance relationship (since we live in different cities after graduation and this relationship is been for 5 years) and I've always looked good and felt pretty but I cant deny the fact that I am gaining weight. I hate it. I hate it. This ends today. I'm going to start clean eating tomorrow and the whole reason I made this profile is to hold myself accountable. I cannot return back to being fat. So starting tomorrow, I'm going to start going back to the gym and start intermittent fasting.