Guys please can I have help?

I just remembered this girl from when I was really young like 6. Whenever my family would go to visit Turkey to visit my dad's parents she would help my mom take care of me. She was a distant relative and neighbor to our grandparents. I just remembered her few months ago. She was like 9 years older than me. I didn't want to ask my parents about it because I thought they would laugh at me and find it funny, but when I did they only had vague memories about her (my mom doesn't even remember her at all).
I have not spoken to anyone about it, maybe I'll ask my grandparents but I developed a liking to her. she was so sweet, kind, pretty and beautiful. (It's like in my teenage years I developed a sexual attraction to her ever since I remembered her, so I have a bunch of really nice things to say about her).
This is embarrassing to talk about here, but I thought saying it out loud to a bunch of strangers who dont know a thing about me might make me feel better about it. I have to find her when I grow up and am independent of my own.