I feel stupid - dating is exhausting when you're autistic

Hello everyone.

I (F22) started to date guys my age, just to know what I've been missing this whole time. I've been hearing everywhere "communication is key".. And I think I took that advice too seriously.

For me, when you date someone and want someting serious with them, you start saying all your trauma, so the other one knows what to not say or do with you, to not make you upset or feel bad later (for me it was S/A and people pretending to be friend with me just to make fun of me in my back later)

I was waiting for the other person to do so. Telling me their trauma, so I would be able to treat them correctly and know them better.

I've been explained a few days ago that.. It doesn't work like this :/

I missed my chance with a guy completely my type. I never felt that kind of connection with someone before. It was the first time in my life I was able to speak freely, without any anxiety.

He ghosted me out of nowhere, after I told him all my trauma and asked him about his. I was sad when he didn't want to share his, but I didn't insist. I felt like I was not worthy of his trust. (we knew each other since 1 month if that can help)

For my defense nobody has ever explained me it doesn't work like this :| I never had any romantic attention growing up, barely any friends, and my only references were books and movies where the guy still wants the girl despite all her trauma and flaws. I DIDN'T KNOW OK

So.. Autistic people, do you have any advice for people in the dating pool? Especially the one who don't have any social skills. Or should I just give up?

Thanks for reading me! I hope you have a nice day.