Do I have a drinking problem? (20M)

Hey guys. I love this Reddit and have been using it for the past couple months to observe my behaviors on Bupropion 300mg XL and how it compares to others.

That being said, I originally was on 150mg XL for two months and wasn’t getting any motivational aspects of the meds, but I did notice an increase in energy that eventually died down after 3 weeks or so, but I continued to take 150 XL to see if the effects of the meds would come back like I’ve read it had for others. I’d also like to note that I was binge drinking (5/6 days out of the week) on 150 XL, so yea, it might be obvious why I probably wasn’t receiving any motivational aspects from the meds.

So, I decided to increase my dose to 300mg XL (which I’ve been taking for two weeks now) in hopes of it curbing my cravings for alcohol, but recently I’ve noticed that it’s actually amplified it. For a few days I was feeling on cloud 9, the grass literally couldn’t be more greener, and for some reason that made me want to drink to celebrate finally being out of the depressive slump I was in for two years.

I know a lot of people note negative side affects like nausea and horrible hangovers drinking on these meds, but I didn’t really experience any worse hangovers, previous to these meds, which has made me want to continue drinking even more.

Some days I’m more logical than others and don’t drink but I have still been drinking around 3-4 days every week (which is a lot better than what I used to do). My urge to drink has been feeling more sporadic, but I seriously don’t want to become dependent on alcohol, and I feel as though I’m not right now even though I drink kinda often because the few days in between my drinking I just feel more exhausted than anything else. My frequent drinking started a little before the time I started the 150 XL, so I guess my question to you guys is, am I on a path to possibly start experiencing alcohol withdrawals?

I’m really worried because I’m 20, starting college again in the fall and I know it’ll be pretty difficult to avoid alcohol, especially because now I use it as a reward for taking care of my responsibilities. Also, any suggestions on how to start tapering off my wanting for alcohol?