Yes, there is a reason…

Are people really depressed for no reason? When I was younger, that seemed to describe me, but it was never true.

But here are the reasons I am depressed today: I am alone and lonely; I have no children; I have no partner & I have let all my friendships lapse; I am poor, without a reliable job; I am obese with fibroid tumors & daily pain; I am in huge debt to the IRS and on multiple school loans; I am afraid of doctors & dentists — petrified, really; I need significant dental work that I cannot afford; I have no family; I live in constant fear that I will be homeless tomorrow; Whenever I do earn some money, I spend recklessly in an attempt to purchase a moment’s solace; I have extreme social anxiety, am addicted to clonopin & my memory is failing; I am old (50+), so there is no hope for the future; I constantly think about suicide & wish for death; There is nothing left that I enjoy. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing at all.