Kicked out of Gay Christian’s sub

Came here looking for gay Christian’s to help. I got kicked out of the last sub for no reason in my opinion. I am 29 in a same sex marriage of two years for context, I have OCD and religious anxiety, and death anxiety I come here for support and to hear other peoples takes that may help me.

Anyway, I was researching NDEs and it started to ease my anxiety, until I asked this question and now my anxiety is back up again. I removed user names for respect and privacy. Maybe someone here can help