21 year-old INFP with many regrets..

I'm in my final year of university and have been living at home (due to personal commitments) so I haven't made many friends. My social anxiety has meant that I never mustered the courage to go any societies and meet new people, so I just feel invisible there. They say university is the best time of your life, but it's just been an endless cycle of studying and going home.

My crippling fear of failure and being hated has prevented me from trying things I know I would love, like clubs and societies. I feel like everyone has something they excel in, but I just feel pretty mediocre at everything.

I've never even been in a relationship because I have such a small social circle of friends which I haven't reached out beyond. I don't go out to parties or big social events because I get extremely uncomfortable and anxious when I'm around a lot of strangers, which I know can be prime places to meet people you're interested in.

I'm 21 now and I just feel like I've made so many mistakes, I'm tired of holding myself back but I'm also fearful of the failure that comes with branching out of your comfort zone.

Sorry for the rant, I just didn't have anywhere else to let out these feelings.

Oh and thank you for taking the time to read this.. it means a lot.