:) Vent out

Life feels like it's slipping through my fingers. My mind is overwhelmed, my heart is heavy, and I feel so hopeless and lost. I can't focus on work or anything else, everything feels meaningless. The only thing I seem to care about is trying to make my boyfriend happy, even though sometimes his words make me feel so small and dumb.

I don't even know where I'm heading anymore. I miss my mom so much it hurts that I can’t meet her right now. I need her food, I need to see her. I just want to feel okay again, but I can't seem to find my way out of this darkness.

What’s happening feels like the worst I could ever imagine, and these thoughts of just giving up keep creeping in. I know it’s not the answer, but I don’t know how to handle this pain anymore.

I just needed to let this out. Maybe someone can relate or understand. If anyone is aware of any therapist online please let me know.