Cannabis store owner quitting after 20+ years

Hello fellow leavers,

Today is the second day in my journey to quit smoking cannabis. I have been a daily user since I can remember and it’s always been a big part of my life. So much so that I found myself running a top cannabis store in my town for the last five years.

I have nothing against cannabis or its users, but the reason I am quitting is because I feel like my life has been on autopilot for a while. I have just been going through the motions, with a sort of detached feeling. There are lots of things I want to do and accomplish, but I feel like cannabis made me numb to taking action. My emotions also feel sort of numb. I don’t feel lows that much, but also don’t feel the highs as much either.

I want to get rid of the brain fog, improve my sleep, become more articulate, develop my sense of humour again, and see what other benefits come out of this experience. I also really want to pick up the guitar again and even learn the drums.

My situation is unique because I run a cannabis store and am of course exposed to thousands of products and samples per week. I order product weekly and am constantly thinking about them and the industry in general. I wonder if I quit what my team and customers will think. And I also wonder if I am being a hypocrite to continue running my cannabis store. At the end of the day I think I will better serve the business if I am sober.

In any case, it’s day two and I didn’t sleep that well I’m still laying in bed writing this post but will be heading to the gym now to get a good sweat and lift some weights.

I will update you all in a few weeks. Thanks in advance for checking in.