Feeling extremely black pilled over the current state of things.

Sorry if this post is a cluster fuck I am feeling a whirlwind of emotions at the moment and just need to vent.

Firstly, I just want to say I live in a deeply red part of a swing state and my family is also deeply MAGA. I am the only person inside of my home that is liberal (Soc Dem). I am bisexual and pro-trans rights but most importantly pro-constitution which protects the rights of all people no matter their background.

Secondly, I cannot help but get an eerie feeling that this country is taking a really dark turn against anyone and anything that goes against the will of DJT and Musk. Watching my family who I thought were able to see through the bullshit cheer on these blatant violations without question in the world all in the name of "reform" and "Trumps plan" has been really black pilling to say the least. As a student of history I see striking similarities between Trump and Musk consolidating power and a certain mustache man from Germany in the 1930's. People have been saying it for a long time that Trump has fascistic aspirations but now that it is actually his supporters still don't give a shit because they genuinely support it.

Third, what really takes the cake for me is how Trump is handling the immigration situation by sending them to literal camps (GUATMO). When you pair this with the fact a family is Wisconsin was literally detained by ICE for simple speaking Spanish in a grocery store it seems like it is only a matter of time before an American citizen ends up in one of these camps simply for not fitting Trumps idea of what an American is to conservatives.

Fourth, the blatant disrespect Trump has shown for the Posse Comitatus Act. The US military cannot be used to crack down on protests and Trump has threatened to do this multiple times in the past and under the current congress I don't foresee any push back against this happening. The spookiest part of this for me is that Trump has threatened to use the national guard to enforce deportation policy and quell protests in blue states. This is when we start getting into possible catalyst for a civil war which brings me around to my overall point of this post.

Lastly, If this were to happen (and that seems like a non zero possibility at this point) I would literally be in the center of the chaos. I used to anti-gun and pro gun control but in light of recent events over the past few years I have changed my mind. We have exhausted two and maybe even three of the four boxes of liberty. People tried to warn the world about Trump on media across the world and people still didn't listen. We tried to hold Trump accountable at the ballot box and that failed because half the country supports fascism at this point. We tried to hold Trump accountable in a court of law and he walked away from it with presidential immunity because he stacked the supreme court. Unless there is some way to hold Trump accountable over the next 4 years and stop this blatant violation of liberal democratic values the only thing left is the cartridge box. I really really really don't want it to come to this but I can no longer ignore the possibility. If the reality of the future is a world where only specific types of people are considered American and America is only for a specific type of person (White, Straight, Christians) and no one else. I would rather die on my own two feet than live life on my hands a knees. To quote something that has been overused but appropriate given the circumstances " Give me Liberty, or Give me Death" -Patrick Henry.

I already have my CCW and am considering investing into a nice AR platform and training with it often. I am also considering on stockpiling all the essentials I might need if there is a long period of unrest in this country where they are hard to come by. My biggest issues is like I said I feel like I am deep in enemy territory so to speak right now and do not have a group I feel comfortable in when it comes to these things. So any advice here would be greatly appreciated. I am not sure how any of you guys feel about this as I am pretty new to this sub. Please feel free to tell me if I am spiraling and over reacting too. Personally I just can no longer stand by and wait for things to get better while the metaphorical ship already seems to be sinking.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk much love peeps.

TLDR; Our country seems fucked for a plethora of reasons and I feel as if it is time to start preparing for the worst. Any advice or words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.

Edit: Sorry for using the young people lingo. Black pilled just means like I feel like we are doomed lol

Edit 2: Thank you guys for all the comments and advice I really appreciate and am planning on responding to most of these comments when I get off work today.