I have zero life plans

About a year ago, I went through an abusive situation with the church I was in. I now have ptsd and have found my ability to work consistently has been kneecapped somewhat by it. Because of religious pressures I have no college education. I teach piano privately and haven't made more than $25,000 any year. Struggling to even pay taxes, let alone anything else.

I used to have dreams and plans. And now I just kind of feel lost. I feel like the only thing I'm good at is what I do, but living in this small town near my family and just a short jaunt away from those who abused me seems unsustainable. I just don't know. I'm afraid if I try to move and things go bad I will hurt myself.