I feel like everything I enjoy has been ripped away

We got married in October, and I wanted to wait a year or two, so we were using condoms but I guess not well enough. I started feeling nauseated, but I was smoking delta 8 to help. After about 2 weeks of feeling that way, I went to an urgent care and got a positive test. I quit smoking immediately, and the nausea meds were enough to keep me feeling okay enough.

This morning, I called back in to try and get the meds refilled, and they won't do it. I couldn't get an appointment at women's health until February, and they won't fill a prescription until I'm seen.

I don't want to keep taking my Prozac either because Google says a baby can be born with addictions, and I've struggled with depression enough that I don't want to even risk messing up a baby's brain chemistry before birth.

Anything I had before that I could turn to when I felt kinda down is gone. All my coping mechanisms are gone. I can't enjoy food or activities when I feel sick, I can't have an evening beer or a nice smoke sesh, I can't have antidepressants.

I'm just depressed and overwhelmed. I feel like there's no joy left for me in the world. I know that's dramatic, I know I should suck it up and be an adult, but maybe someone relates? If not. . . I'll know it's just a me problem.