Anyone else dealing with feeling low/almost depressed in pregnancy?

This is my second baby, I’m halfway there wohoo! But I just can’t shake this feeling of being sad all the time. It happened in my previous pregnancy too but it wasn’t as bad as with this one.

Im so jealous of girls who love being pregnant, I wanted 3 kids but I don’t think I could go through this again. I have a 1 year old and I feel like this just piles on to this feeling. He doesn’t sleep well, Im exhausted all the time. I got made redundant couple of weeks ago so I’m a stay at home mum, I feel like I completely lost myself in motherhood and I don’t even want to do anything about it. My son is at that awkward stage of starting to walk where he will let go and take few steps but might hurt himself so my house looks like an absolute bomb went through it, because I’m struggling to stay on top of anything with him being around and keeping him safe. I get to do the dishes and laundry when he’s having a nap and do a quick bathroom clean up every few days and rest a bit after running around. When he goes to bed I go to bed because I need to rest too, he wakes up few times a night and I’m too tired to do anything. So without even being able to keep up with the house I’ve no interest meeting up with friends or anything, I want to sleep in my spare time.

My husband is great, we really share the load and he’s always taking over when hes home but I’m just exhausted all the time anyway. I feel like I’m missing out on so many beautiful memories with my son because I’m pregnant and tired. I know this will pass once baby girl is here because it was the same with my son but feeling this loneliness and sadness for another few months is going to be so hard, even though I know its temporary.

I’m not looking for sympathy, I just wanted to let it out because I feel like I’ve no one to talk to about this in real life as I should feel grateful that I have the opportunity to spend this time with my son and that we are having a beautiful baby girl soon too but this shit is hard.