confused

recently me and my ex have cut all contact and he no longer wants to speak to me. we have always been so connected spiritually, before we even met we had so many connections and we have both always felt so tied to each other. i’m scared this time we won’t come back to eachother. but i also want to grow and heal and change into a better version of myself and i don’t know how to do that. we still love eachother a lot and i can’t help but feel like it’s not over between us.