Tried today and failed

Hi- I need to stop drinking. I was committed to not drinking today because I drank way too much the night before and I didn't even mean to drink that much. And I felt like hot garbage today. However, I was shaky & full of anxiety so I drank. Today was stressful because I am trying to help a friend. And it's pretty important; she needs help. I will be attending court tomorrow with her and hopefully she can get the injunction against harassment she petitioned for. I also found out on Monday that my dog will be passing soon & we are so attached to each other; I can't imagine being without him. .